Although I can hardly tell one day from the next unless I have to do something during business hours. LOL! Like today, I need to make a dentist appointment. Just a checkup, but they always find something. LOL!
We do have to go to Doctors and Dentist every once in a while, but it has amazed me how sometimes I think I must go and figure out how to heal myself. Our minds are incredibly powerful! Like when we are dying, we hold on till we finish everything we can and then let go mindfully! Unless we get shot or something, LOL! funny/not funny!
Honest, natural laughter feels sooo good and I consider it a gift anytime I get to do it. I got woke up this morning to my doorbell and one of my neighbors lost their dog Smoky. Last time, he came here, but he has been gone since 11:30 last night and he is a Jack Russell. I can hear them calling his name outside and I wanna go tell them that I almost lost my Jack Russell when she was young several times.
They just wanna run and use up their energy in the open, so their doggy is probably pretty far by now. When he came to my house he was not hungry, but he will get hungry soon and has probably went so far he can't find his way home.
I may end up staying here another year and grow some flowers. And when Kassandra and I talked about it, I actually feel more comfortable here and incredibly calm. I think when you have been traumatized as bad as I have, it takes a long time to not be afraid of everybody. I have been a little paranoid skitzophrenic I think. LOL!
So hope they find their doggy, being an impath I can totally feel the sadness and it makes me think of my sister and how she lost custody of almost all of her six kids, except for the older ones. My ex-husband kidnapped Saffron when she was 3 months old trying to get me to come back and skipped town. Noone could find them and it hurt me so bad I will never forget it.
The thing about love is the loss hurts more than anything, but the love feels better and is more magic than anything as well. I am trying to find a balance between these two things in our understanding with mind, body and soul connectivity in yoga. I can say we have tapped into some tools to ease the pain, like our eternal nature, invisible energies still here, the circular mindset and circular nature of NATURE. These give me comfort and still keep my door open to love!
It is Death while still alive to close the door to love because we are afraid of pain. But it does seem like an easier path, but leads to nothing. And who wants to go there. LOL!
I'll be adding a Cleo show to patreons later today!